16 weeks....2 weeks

Today I should be 16 weeks pregnant.  I should be feeling flutters and rubbing my growing belly.  Instead it has been 2 weeks since we had to say goodbye.

I had my post op yesterday.  I am healing well physically and the doctor was very kind.  Chace's neural tube defect was very rare and the doctor reassured me that I did everything right, although I will always wonder what happened, what disrupted his neural tube growth and caused the Acrania?

For now, I am on 4 mg of folic acid daily in addition to a prenatal vitamin.  We are hopeful this will curb any chances that this nightmare could happen again.  I am hoping we can try again in the New Year...New Year, New Beginnings.